
I’d trapped myself in survival thinking, parched, bereft on the rocky shores of my previous unwanted adventures. Life had taken me low, against my will.
When you arrived, unbidden, it was like lightening. You wanted light so you created it. You wanted joy so you became it. You took me by surprise – your enthusiasm for life.
And so I wanted you. I wanted to escape that torn down essence of me. Clinging to the rocks.
I chose you. Your beautiful white light energy. Your way of interacting with the world. Your soulnessness.
I wanted to taste the sweet freedom of not being me for a little while.
I felt betrayed by my own loss and heartache. I had set out to create something new and powerful, but it hadn’t worked out that way. I was drowning in my loneliness. I couldn’t set myself free even though I had tried every personal development and spiritual trick I knew.
I wanted hope. I wanted you.
So I fell in love with you. It was swift and easy. I didn’t keep myself safe, at a distance. Practice due diligence. I honestly didn’t care.
Play the roulette, and roll the dice. Ignore the temptation of a safe considered life.
Being with you helped me be another way in the world. Another way of interacting with the light. I loved it.
I’m touched you let me into your world for just a little while.
I hope that you got out of it as much as I did.
There was no chance it would last. The reasons for the loving were all wrong. For me, lost in heartache and loneliness. And from your side – denial of your dreams and parts of who you are. I wish you well on your journey of this thing called life.
Yet, despite all that.
I broke myself against the wall of my desires and became who I really am.
My love for you set me free.
I loved unconditionally. I chose to.
And so, I let love in. I surrendered to her highest vision.
Let all mortals taste her freedom.
I danced barefoot, arms flung up, in the sunlight.
His love.
Your love.
The love inside you.
The truth of your being.
Love.
And now, I see I had it inside me all along. You were the ignition. The spark to my unseen and dormant flame.
So I thank you. You healed me, but really …
I healed myself.
And set myself free.
The Lesson
When you choose love, in any endeavour,
any activity, with any relationship,
you are healing yourself,
and taking yourself to the highest point in your soul.
Always. Everytime.
You redeem yourself and set yourself free.
You are love.
Best,
Monique xx
Love quotes for your soul
“The use of love is to heal. When it flows without effort from the depth of the self, love creates health.” Deepak Chopra
“Love her but leave her wild.” Atticus
“For one human being to love another; that is perhaps the most difficult of all our tasks, the ultimate, the last test and proof, the work for which all other work is but preparation.” Rainer Maria Rilke
“Love cures people – both the ones who give it and the ones who receive it.” Karl Menninger
“For true love is inexhaustible; the more you give, the more you have. And if you go to draw at the true fountainhead, the more water you draw, the more abundant is its flow.” Antoine de Saint-Exupery
“I am in love – and, my God, it is the greatest thing that can happen. I tell you, find someone you can fall in love with. Do it. Let yourself fall in love. If you have not done so already, you are wasting your life.” D.H. Lawrence
“Once you learn to accept and love them for who they are, you subconsciously learn to love yourself unconditionally.” Yvonne Pierre
“To be brave is to love someone unconditionally, without expecting anything in return.” Madonna
“Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.” Bob Marley
“The only way love can last a lifetime is if it’s unconditional. The truth is this: love is not determined by the one being loved but rather by the one choosing to love.” Stephen Kendrick
P.S. Please leave a comment below. I promise to answer each and everyone.
Andrew Stewart says
Thank you Monique, an inspiring reminder of the liberating power of love.
Monique says
Thank you Andrew. Yes love connects us to who we are. Wishing you all the best!!
Wendy Bulger says
You are amazing!
Monique says
Thank you Wendy. It was quite an incredible journey with lots of highs and the eventual low that comes with parting. Feeling brave enough now to publish it. 🙂