I’d trapped myself in survival thinking, soulness gone, parched, bereft on the rock torn shores of my previous unwanted adventures. Life had taken me low, against my will.
When you control what happens day to day the long term takes care of itself. The alternative is feeling out of control. When you feel out of control you never get to the gym or start that photography class. You don’t plan and are always trying to stay afloat. You complain to friends about how […]
I watched TV every night and cried. Then I would berate myself for being so emotional. Then something happened. I snapped, got so angry. Unlike anything I had experienced before.
Every morning I wake up I see horizontal slices of light come through a blind and I don’t know where I am. It’s a strange discombobulating experience. Even when sighting a piece of furniture I’m in a muddle. It takes minutes to assemble my bedroom items and make sense of them. I guess part of […]
My last goodbye swim in the cliff pool near my house did not go down like I wanted it to. I was angry and upset. A few days prior, I had sent all of my belongings to Queensland. Now, all I had to do was finish tidying up and give access to the cleaners. I […]
One of the biggest things I’ve been doing is to deeply commit to my intentional habits over and over again. It goes something like this, Alarm goes off at 6.45am. I wake up into consciousness, although you wouldn’t know it from looking at me. I run a self check through my body. Body reports back, […]